"It should not be this way. Should it?" Do the homeless mentally ill belong in prison?

 Black box

Black box

In the early morning hours of November 8, 2011, I was handcuffed with a black box and belly chain, shackles were placed on my ankles with a short chain between them. I was wearing a bright orange jumpsuit with the word PRISONER in black letters across the back, as if someone might mistake me for something different. I was then transported to the United States Courthouse in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. Today was the day I had been looking forward to for 17 months.

I had been arrested on July 14, 2010 and held in a solitary cell in the Kay County Jail, where not even I knew who I was for several days. A nurse recognized me and attempted to find the right medications and the right dose, to no avail. I had quit eating, I would not even take a candy bar from my court-appointed attorney. Finally, after two months, I was committed to the state mental hospital.

Upon arrival at the mental hospital, and being relieved of my restraints, I ran into my old room and found someone in what I thought was my bed. I asked him to get out, but a fight erupted wherein I hit my head on the edge of the steel door, cutting a gash that required several stitches at the local hospital. I was left with half my head shaved.

Back at the mental hospital, I was given an injection for hallucinations, as they had my medical records. This was not my first visit here.

The next morning, I saw my doctor. She weighed me in at 126 pounds. She said she was putting me on double portions for awhile and a snack at night. I was still hearing some Chinese voices, so she said she would increase my medications. She said not to worry, that I was safe here and she would take care of me. At first I saw her daily, then weekly, and then monthly. After several months, she pronounced me stable with medications, and the deputies from Kay County came and took me back to the jail.

On March 1, 2011, two U.S. Marshals came to get me, bringing me an orange jumpsuit. I was chained and shackled and brought to the same holding pens. Later I was transferred to a federal holding facility in a county jail, where I remained, sometimes with medication, sometimes without. On two incidents I was beaten by 6 to 8 deputies because I would not back up to the door and stick my hands through to be handcuffed. I was tazed and sprayed with mace, then dragged to the shower, thrown into the small 2 by 3 confines where cold water was turned on for several hours.

The marshals came back to the holding pens and said, "It's your turn to shine." I was led swiftly down a long maze of hallways in the inner recesses of the courthouse, the sharp edges of the shackles biting into the skin and tendons of my ankles. I could feel it against the bone. I was hurried. "Don't want to keep the judge waiting," they said. We came to some stairs and climbed them, they pushed a button and a door popped open. I was finally in a huge courtroom. I felt really tiny in there knowing there was no one in the world who knew I was there except these marshals.

I was homeless. I had always been homeless except when in jail, prison, or a mental hospital.

My public defender came in and was telling me what was going to happen this morning. I was to be sentenced. The federal sentencing recommendations were for 6 months to one year, he said. The Attorney General and probation office had agreed on this punishment.

I was charged with theft of public funds and using an identification of another to commit a crime. I had cashed a social security check that I was not the rightful recipient of and used an old driver's license that was not mine. I knew I was going to have to pay back the $1,850.90. I was hoping to get my own disability check, as they said I was eligible. I just never had a place long enough to get it started.

Then someone said, "All rise," and in walked the United States District Judge, David L. Russell.

The judge said that we were there for sentencing and asked my public defender if he had anything to say. I remember him saying there was a long history of mental illness in this case. He said that when I was on medication and had a place to live, and food, I did good. It was when I got out of prison, having no place to live, needing to work and support myself but unable because of a severe mental illness -- when I could not even manage to get transportation to get to appointments to get my medication -- that I would go off the prescribed medications and turn to alcohol. I would then commit some homeless crime and end up back in prison.

The judge asked me what I had to say. I said the same things. It's when I get out with nowhere to go that I have no idea what to do. I get overwhelmed when I can't get the right medications. I use alcohol. Then I am back in jail, heading back to prison for years.

Then the judge started: "Frankly, I am quite sympathetic with you," he said. "I know from the presentence report you have had a tough life, a lot to deal with..."

I was hearing him saying, "I think you are better off mentally and physically in prison..." Then the next thing I hear him saying, "I sentence you to 120 months in federal prison with a three-year suspended sentence after that."

I felt as though I was trapped on a runaway train heading straight for a cliff. I wanted to scream "WAIT! I don't want to spend the rest of my life in prison. I have always been in prison." I wanted to somehow put those words back into him and make this nightmare go away. I am an old man with a mental illness, not a criminal. I do not think I will be better off in a federal prison for the next ten years. Prisons are not the right place for me, that is a place where you are punished. I have been punished all my life. Why can't someone say "I want to help you"? Help me find a place to live, even just one small room with a door that locks from the inside, not the outside, just once before I die an old man in prison.

I want to become a free and successful member of the the human race, not in the junk-pile where America throws their broken people. Maybe I am better off in a federal prison, but it should not be this way. Should it?

Having a serious mental illness puts me at a serious disadvantage at life, both while in prison and even moreso upon release back into an uncaring, cold world. I am now almost 63. I am not even sure how many prisons I have been to anymore, lost count, but I know I am no criminal and that there has never been any serious attempt at helping me find a life outside. I have a serious mental illness. I think I have a right to be respected and treated humanely because of the inherent right of being a human being. I do not think I am now, ever was, or ever will be "better off" in any prison.

I think the people who criminalize me for being mentally ill would be "better off" in prison. Send them there and sentence me to "LIFE," in a place where people care about you, where people think love, not condemnation, is the answer! A place where I would have adequate food and shelter, access to the great outdoors -- nature. How about some meaningful activities and someone who is willing to listen, even when they can't understand what I am trying to say. "ALL OF THIS OUTSIDE OF PRISON."

I have been in prison for at least 40 years and these things are not there. It is a place of hate, a place of hurt, fear and sickness of the human spirit. Just once in my life could I have a simple life around people who care, some plants, a dog, maybe even a horse, and lots of water? I love water.

I have 18 months left on the 10-year sentence and I have the restitution paid off. I have some friends out there now, for the first time in my life. I thought there was a chance.

I put in for a relocation to New Hampshire where I have an apartment promised to me, and a part-time job helping with the chores around their rental properties and fixing things. I like to fix stuff and paint it. Those friends said they would help me get my disability check started. But I recently found out that the New Hampshire Federal Probation Department denied the request, stating that I would be "better off" (yes, they said that) returning to Oklahoma, although I will be homeless and alone there. How can anyone say I will be better off homeless and alone epically with a serious mental illness, or for that matter in a violent federal prison for ten years as an old man?

Society seems to want things clean, with no mess, no fuss. If it's broken and deformed, hide it in a closet, get it out of sight before they have to be reminded that there is imperfection in the world, lest they catch this sickness, this contagion. If it's lame, crippled, or crazy, get it out of here. They do not care where you put it, just make it go away, lest it remind them of their own imperfections and frailty of life. Heaven forbid this happens to one of them. I am "better off" forgotten, out of sight, done away with, RIGHT??? That is the question only you can answer.

As Doctor Martin Luther King once said, "It's always the right time to do the right thing."

Although this is written by me it's not just about me. The dynamics are far-reaching and all-inclusive to the trend of America's criminalizing addiction and being mentally ill.

I have not one day of formal education. At the age of learning to read and write, I was locked in a cellar with no running water, no light and alone, except those times I was being raped and beaten. Then I would be left laying there on the dirt floor in my own piss and blood and shit. So I will not attempt to engage you in some intellectual discussion on ethics and morals, I leave that to the educated. I will take aim at your heart, your consciousness, as it's from here my words pour out in an unbroken stream.

There are those who read my words and say I am a good caring person -- I wonder what do they want. Some have said I am an amazing human being -- I look around suspiciously. Who Me? They say I show more resilience and tenacity than any other person they know -- Not me, I argue with myself, as I am filthy and no good. These same people have said I am strong and beautiful -- what in the hell do they want now?

The greatest gift that could ever be bestowed upon me would be acceptance, some place I could feel safe, to know in my heart of hearts I will never again be cast into that dark cellar of my past. To bring me to feel and accept that I am lovable and that I am loved as with what I would gladly pass from this world to the next with the assurance that in the next world I could make it a better place, that I would be stronger than I was in the world.

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Thanksgiving: A Prisoner's Perspective

 Thanksgiving dinner in prison

Thanksgiving dinner in prison

Today is Thursday, November 23, 2017. Thanksgiving. For federal prisoners across America, it is a day of irony. The day begins and ends just like any other day in prison. The cell doors were unlocked shortly after dawn, and prisoners, in a race to go nowhere, shot out like horses at the Kentucky Derby. After spending most of the morning making expensive phone calls, we were hustled to the mess hall to enjoy a not-so-delicious lunch consisting of sliced turkey that seemed to have come from one who died of dehydration, and a slice of freezer-burnt pumpkin pie with an expiration date of February 15, 2017 (Yeah, nine months ago). After lunch, we spent the rest of the day wasting life, and being thankful for it. Then, for those of us who were fortunate enough to survive the pie (or unfortunate, depending on one's release date), we were locked back into the horse stalls for the night, just like every other night. Basically, there wasn't anything special about the day. It was just another day, no different from the other 326 that preceded.

If anything, today was a day of irony, a meaningful day designated for families to spend quality time together and express gratitude for divine goodness while federal prisoners are forced to observe the day in a world where such familial ties and divine goodness are systematically opposed and suppressed. Sure we were fed turkey, something that wasn't a requirement by law, divine or manmade. But what good is turkey when we are shipped thousands of miles away from home and denied any opportunity to be with family. Fuck turkey. Give us conjugal visits, and keep the turkey. Is a slice of a dehydrated, deceased turkey's ass suppose to cover up the fact that federal prisons are designed to destroy families and turn hearts into stones that shall soon become brittle? Perhaps for some, for the moment of digestion. But for me, I'd rather they kept their turkey and fed it to the poor. Instead of forcing us to observe a holiday that blatantly doesn't apply to us, it's best to remove the irony and treat the day like any other day--another day in the can.

I know this is turkey day, and I am suppose to express not my criticism but my gratitude. So on this ironic day of freezer-burnt pumpkin pie and Presidential pardons to turkeys but not humans, I am thankful for three things: My mother and daughters' health, my sanity, and my heart that has yet to turn to stone.

Happy Turkey day!

thanksgiving turkeys in prison



Quawntay Adams is a guest writer for Prison Lives. You can find him on

A Tour of Homelessness with a Homeless Man

Originally Published on the Huffington Post


Hello. My name is Aubrey. I am homeless and have a mental illness. Please follow me for a moment, I have something to show you.

Be careful stepping over the still half-collapsed bodies lying here in the park, it’s still early for them. Rough night. Over here you’ll see the street prostitute, with her exaggerated painted-on face, bright red clown lips, and those huge blue smears of eye shadow around the beady blood-shot eyes. Yes, she is skin and bones, part of being HIV-positive. And yes, she does kind of look like a caricature of one of those brightly-colored bugs you see in a nature magazine. She’s my sister. Did you know that?

Now see there in there in the corner? There, screaming at the passing pedestrian traffic heading down Camp Street. He’s the first tramp entering today’s trading. “One dollar!” he shouts, as he swings a broken toaster wildly over his head. Soon the other would-be entrepreneurs will enter the day’s trading market hawking wares they’ve discovered overnight throughout the city — broken shoes, old VHS tapes, one-legged chairs, an odd couch cushion. They shout, they scream at you, at me... at the world, as they frantically wave their objects for sale.

Watch the crowd as they give the homeless a wide birth, even veering off into the street of dangerous traffic to avoid the stench of unwashed bodies. They’re on their way to offices, I think, although I never really know where they’re headed in such a hurry each morning and night. Can you see something in their faces? Is it fear? Disgust? Superiority? Recognition?

I see judgment more than anything. But they’re your people, you tell me what they’re thinking. I really want to understand. Are they maybe thinking, “I would never do that to myself”? Well, they don’t have to. If they had their arms or, say, a foot cut off, would they still say, “I would never do that to myself”? Without having experienced pain that was so horrible they couldn’t stand it, literally resulting in the removal of that part, can they really say?

Well, these homeless people are damaged in a place that can’t be cut off or cut out. It is a mental pain, just as horrible and real as any pain, maybe even worse than the physical type. The people in the park are all badly injured, some so much so that you could not fathom the intensity. They cannot bear to be present in their world without something to at least deaden the pain a little now and then.

You say you know how to treat this type of behavior, or at least sweep it under the rug. You won’t tolerate it, so you ostracize them, attack them, criminalize them. You lock them up. By exposing them to extreme poverty, rape and disease you take away the remaining things that make them feel human. You may hope for transformation, but you instead further traumatize them.

What, may I ask, have they not already been subjected to? What further negative could you possibly do to us that has not already been done? I truly want to hear your side of this. I am willing to listen.

Why is it so hard to understand that perpetuating the negative consequences aren’t helping you or me? Is there not one among you who is willing to utter a new word or try a new concept? How about one that has actually worked for untold years, on people and animal alike? Try LOVE!

Time after time it has proven that when love reaches down and touches a life it can be transforming. Have you got it in you? Are you big enough to put the self-righteous parts aside long enough to reach out and hug one of these people that reeks of unwashed body odor. Can you say, “I love you. Now let’s get you home and cleaned up! I bet you’re starved, what would you like? We’ll pick up something on the way home.”

Now go about your life, the stable wonderful life you live. But please, I beg of you, tell your people about my people, those you’ve seen here today. Please don’t forget us.

I think we — you and I — could actually bring this chapter to a close with a lived-happily-ever-after ending. It is my most sincere hope that we will one day meet again. Next time it could be that we have traded uniforms. But know that you are all still my brothers and sisters no matter what uniform you wear. Please know I love you.

Audrey Elwood wrote this article for Prison Lives (, a nonprofit organization established to educate and enable prisoners to be productive. Aubrey is currently serving a 10-year sentence for a probation-level offense after a judge ruled that, due to his homelessness and mental illness, he would be “better off” in prison.

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Death Penalty makes redemption impossible

by Steve Champion - incarcerated on death row San Quentin since 1982 

Published on                Used with permission.

Below is an excerpt from a chapter of the memoir “Dead to Deliverance: A Death Row Memoir” written by Steven Champion, a former member of the Crips street gang who is on death row. Tom Kerr, associate professor of writing at Ithaca College, edited and published the book. 

The public, with its hunger for revenge, does not want to hear about personal acts of atonement by people who have been sentenced for a crime. Acts of atonement by the condemned are usually viewed as a ploy to save his or her own life — not as a genuine act of redemption.


People on death row are deemed the lowest of the low. Many people believe death-row prisoners cannot be “reformed” because they are “unformed” as human beings. Executing the condemned is not viewed the same as killing a human — it is chalked up to society’s attempt to rid itself of its toxic waste.

Proponents of capital punishment freeze condemned-to-die criminals at the worst moments of their lives; to justify their execution, they must be barred from redemption. But history is full of individuals who have made major mistakes but manage to turn their lives around and make significant contributions to humanity.

Many religious people have mixed emotions about whether a murderer can be redeemed. But when it comes to biblical figures like Moses, King David and Saint Paul, they are quick to make exemptions. In fact, these figures are highly revered around the world precisely because society has determined that their contributions to humanity outweigh their crimes.
Why are some people worthy of redemption while others are denied it? Why are death-row prisoners damned as unrepentant criminals incapable of transforming their lives? Redemption is not reserved for some. Redemption is a road map for reconnecting to one’s humanity. If redemption is not meant for people who have lost their way and hit rock bottom, then the word ought to be stricken from every dictionary. Redemption means regaining something you have lost through improving your life. Many people, in and out of prison, never atone for anything; they go to their graves defiant and unrepentant. A person who has the courage to look within himself  and decide to transform his life ought to be encouraged, if not applauded.

Some recent recipients of the Nobel Peace Prize were not always seen as champions of peace. In 2001, both Nelson Mandela and Frederik de Klerk became Nobel Peace Prize laureates. De Klerk was the head of an apartheid government that openly oppressed, discriminated against and murdered blacks, and considered Mandela a terrorist. Mandela once headed the guerrilla wing of the African National Congress, which believed in armed violence. In 1994, both Yitzhak Rabin and Yasser Arafat were awarded the Nobel Peace Prize for their efforts to create peace in the Middle East. Prior to receiving the Nobel Prize, Arafat was labeled a terrorist. Yitzhak Rabin was prime minister of Israel and sanctioned violence against the Palestinians. All of these people were viewed unfavorably in their lifetimes, but were able to transcend their mistakes — because society accepted the fact that they were not the sum total of their mistakes.

No one is.

The transformative power of redemption can change anyone who is sincere about changing. It makes no difference if a person lives in a temple in Tibet, an ashram in India or a prison cell on death row. Your location should not diminish the value of your redemption.

Steven Champion has been on California’s death row for 36 years, since he was 18 years old.


Originally published by the Ithacan in 2010

The criminal justice system is a "laughing stock."

The criminal justice system is a "laughing stock." I didn't say it--the president did.

In response to the terrorist act in Lower Manhattan this Halloween, in which Sayfullo Saipov, 29, reportedly used a rented Home Depot truck to mow down pedestrians and cyclists, President Trump condemned the criminal justice system. He stated that it is not only slow and soft, but also a laughing stock.

To a degree, I agree. Affluent people like Trump, Sessions, and their cronies have been getting away with breaking the law for way too long, while simultaneously screaming for harsher punishments for underprivileged law-breakers. All we've heard from Trump and Sessions since they have been in office is that drug dealers need to spend more time in prison--as if thirty years to life isn't enough. They seem to blame all of America's problems on immigrants, terrorists, and drug dealers. Put away the bad guys! They shout. But now it is coming out that they themselves could very well be the bad guys. At least that what special counsel Robert Mueller thinks.

On October 30, 2017, Mueller unsealed indictments of Trump campaign associates Paul Manfort and Rick Gates. Another member of the campaign, George Papadopoulos (whom Trump touted as being an "excellent guy" during the campaign, but now calls a "liar"), has been cooperating with Mueller. So while Trump and Sessions were blaming America's woes on the bad guys, the real bad guys were right there at the table with them. But now that the heat is on the Trump administration, the White House claims that the bad guys aren't really the bad guys, but "liars" trying to make others out to be the bad guys. With all of the chaos in the White House, I now understand why they want to fill prison bunks with immigrants and drug dealers. So that there isn't any bunks available for them.

The criminal justice system really is a laughing stock. Ha-ha.

Quawntay Adams is a guest writer for Prison Lives. You can find him on

"Success is Closer than we Think."; a Prisoner's Perspective

"Success is Closer Than We Think."



The anti-mass incarceration movement is not taking full advantage of technology, services, general resources and proven communication strategies.


For-profit and non-profit organizations worldwide are working together, maintaining a collaborative and informative presence in people's lives with unprecedented ease and effectiveness. Even kids in developing countries are successfully promoting their ideas, sharing their lifestyles and improving the lives of their families and communities by utilizing the growing variety of powerful tools available today. Yet, despite the near-universal embrace of trying to achieve the best results possible in any effort, which requires full employment of these tools, many in the anti-mass incarceration movement seem content with the status quo.


The "anti-mass incarceration movement" is a catch-all term for every person and group involved in addressing the negative consequences of mass incarceration -- everything from crime control and bail to incarceration and post-release issues. With such a large collection of participants and members, the failure of the movement to capitalize on current resources and strategies is both understandable and unacceptable.


We can aim higher than "it's better than nothing." We can do better than "helpful." We can speed up progress.


For example, imagine driving through the city and seeing a group of people helping someone move, their t-shirts reading: "People At Your Service (" You later spot the t-shirts on individuals working in an urban garden, at clean-up sites, mowing lawns and painting buildings around town.


Looking up online, you find links to facebook, Pinterest and Instagram accounts, chronicling the positive work and achievements of PAYS' workers -- all currently and formerly incarcerated individuals in your area and nationwide. You see pictures, videos and stories of joyous families reuniting, children doing better in school socially, companies benefitting from the employment of those currently and formerly incarcerated. You see communities strengthened by previously incarcerated mentors and volunteers, returned citizens happy to be paying taxes and voting, many for the first time. You see joint efforts between the currently and formerly incarcerated, crime survivors, and corrections' staff.


Intrigued, you follow PAYS on Twitter and read posts addressing misconceptions about people with criminal histories, alongside encouraging tips for them and their loved ones. On the PAYS website, you find the most comprehensive up-to-date resource directory available with information for those reentering society on jobs, housing, health, programs, technology, leisure, personal development, volunteering and more.


Later that night, you see a TV ad for PAYS about their free services, or another featuring the negative effects of mass incarceration that PAYS is working to resolve.


Imagine how such an open-minded campaign would weaken the debilitating stigma of criminal convictions. It would clearly demonstrate the value of the currently and formerly incarcerated while replacing much of the societal fears and suspicions toward them with acceptance and goodwill. Though this would involve various internet, mobile and physical tools, it need not be overly complicated or expensive. Start at the state level and expand under the guidance of stakeholders with expertise in the type of coordination and the level of management needed.


A lack of resources and power is not the problem it used to be. These can be overcome, as they have been by others in similar or more forbidding circumstances. The problem now is a lack of cooperation, resource utilization and vision. There are far too many apps, services and know-how (often free) for leaders and influencers in the anti-mass incarceration movement to continue relying on traditional methods and networks, or new ones only partially -- especially because they seem confusing or a bit inconvenient.


Instead of distracting ourselves with what we don't have, let's set an example for the current and formerly incarcerated by focusing on the many things we know, possess and have access to. Success is a lot closer than we think.


Produced in partnership between Prison Lives and The Community. Prison Lives is a 501(C)(3) non-profit organization established to educate and enable prisoners to be productive individuals while incarcerated for a positive existence both inside and outside of prison life. The Community is primarily a nonprofit news source for the anti-mass incarceration movement, esp. in Wisconsin (



An Apology


An Apology

It has been said by one on a high bench that I am better off mentally and physically in a federal prison. So I accept this social disgrace with an apology.

I am sorry, truly sorry. I can honestly say I wish things could have been different than they were. But wishes are just wishes.

Perhaps I am not normal. I have done some things... bad things... bad things that you would never do.

Have you ever drank your own piss? I have. After about 20 days a person will. Then you swell up and stink from it. You smell your own rotting teeth and flesh.

You have probably never engaged bugs in a deep conversation, or considered them your friends. I have. Have you slept with a little frog clutched to your cheek because you couldn't stand the loneliness anymore? I've pressed it against my ear to hear its heartbeat because the silence was so painfully intense.

You probably wouldn't eat your friends either, would you? I did. And then I would cry because I was so sorry for doing it. I missed them, but I could not help myself anymore. With tears streaming down my face, I would search in the corners and cracks for tiny bugs. Then a hand I had no control over would shove them screaming one by one into my mouth, and I swallowed them. Some days the tears didn't come, when I had become convinced that the intense burning pain in my guts was now the bugs eating me.

Solitude is a cruel, relentless companion. Nothing short of death can compare. But even death is not real. No, not yet. It is not even a concept when you're seven years old.

Lost in pain with no social connection, decades of learning of nothing in prison except how to cut off my feelings. Branded with these scarlet letters -- criminal -- across my chest, I would now go out and act as a normal person (whatever that might entail). I would be one who has lived a normal life in a normal world, out of decency, out of compassion for my fellow human beings, lest again I be caught up and returned to the cage where I am viewed as some maladjusted animal, clutching a frog to my chest with one hand, while the other forces screaming bugs into my mouth as I chase them down with my own piss.

I SCREAM and CRY. It should not be this way. Should it?


Aubrey Elwood is a guest writer for Prison Lives.

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To kneel or not to kneel by Quawntay Adams


To kneel or to stand. The entire country is at odds over NFL players kneeling during the national anthem. What began as a form of protest to police brutality and racial and social inequality has now been deemed disrespectful by patriotic fans, opportunist, and politicians. The goal of opening dialogue to address inequality has been met with a form of protest of its own. Instead of people coming together to address the concerns of these players (who are simply exhibiting courage by shedding light on the concerns of those who have no voice), many people, including President Trump and Vice President Mike Pence, are accusing these players of disrespecting the flag. 

Disrespecting the flag? That seems more like close-minded opinions rather than objective reality. After all, what harm or benefit is there to the flag whether a player chooses to stand or kneel during the national anthem? And even if kneeling were a form of disrespect to the flag, what commandment or law requires people to respect the flag? What if, for the sake of argument, these players really don't have respect for the flag? And what if they simply disregard the national anthem as a patriotic war song that divides nations and people rather than unites them? Should such players be forced to pretend that they have respect for the flag? Wouldn't that be infringing upon one's rights to freedom of expression? The very rights that the flag is suppose to represent. 

Forcing one to oblige by the views and beliefs of others would be contrary to the idea of what a "free" country is suppose to stand for. But that seems to be what is taking place. People are trying to force their political and patriotic views and beliefs on others. And when people resist such force, they are deemed problematic and "disrespectful." No person is obligated to respect, admire, or pledge allegiance to the flag (a piece of cloth that in itself symbolizes separation of nations and people). Man's obligation to humanity doesn't obligate respect for war and those who fight them. Our only obligation should be to the promotion humanity, which requires open-mindedness and understanding. Instead of being offended by one's harmless expression of protest, why not try to understand the reasoning behind it. If we really care about this country and the principals of freedom, we'd care less about whether NFL players kneel or stand, and care more about the reasons that compel them to kneel.

Quawntay Adams is a guest writer for Prison Lives. You can find him on

Trump administration is clueless on criminal justice

Originally Published on USA Today

After President Trump's surprise firing of FBI Director James Comey, the flurry of comparisons to President Nixon started to fly. But the comparison could just as easily have been made to Trump's intentions toward criminal justice.

Trump campaigned on law and order, stating that under his watch "safety would be restored." He was echoing the campaign promises made by Nixon during his 1968 run, where he announced, "We are to restore order and respect for law in this country."

The Nixon administration was decisive, setting the trend for the enactment of a series of law-and-order regulations. Now, it appears the Trump administration is following suit. Last week, Attorney General Jeff Sessions ordered stricter federal criminal sentencing guidance. Prosecutors should "charge and pursue the most serious, readily provable offense," he wrote, a move that will increase incarceration rates.

The United States has 2.2 million people in prisons and jails — a 500% increase over the past four decades. It has dubiously earned America the most-incarcerated-country-in-the-world award. However, between 2010 and 2015, the national imprisonment rate actually declined 8.4%. For the first time in 40 years, the number of prisoners started to decrease instead of increasing yearly. Notably, the nation's crime rate remained at a 20-year low. Criminal justice finally appeared to be going in the right direction.

Then Trump took office.

Trump says one thing, proposes another

In February, barely a month into his administration, the Department of Justice made the most pronounced change. It decided to reinstate the use of private prisons for federal incarceration, rescinding a key order made by the Obama administration just months earlier to "phase out" their use. In the memo, Sessions said private prisons were necessary "to meet the future needs of the federal correctional system." In other words, the law-and-order mantra of Trump's campaign was about to be realized — incarceration rates are about to ramp up.

But after the fact, the administration released its 2018 budget, indicating an overall reduction in correctional spending. With an announced decrease in Department of Justice spending to the tune of $1.1 billion, his proposed budget actually forecasted a move toward less incarceration — affecting the Crime Victims Fund and the Asset Forfeiture Fund, both designed to reimburse state prisons and county jails for incarcerating undocumented immigrants. Furthering that notion, other crucial funds contributing to mass incarceration were also on the chopping block.

So which is it: a galvanizing of Nixon-sparked mass incarceration or continuing the Obama trend of chipping away at it?

The sentencing guidance formally rescinds the prior administration's policies that successfully lowered federal incarceration rates. Perhaps the biggest clue to the direction of this administration came when the president instituted new executive actions, including the Restoring Community Safety Act, which pledges increased funding for programs that train and assist police. The act was backed up in the proposed budget by a $175 million increase in law enforcement spending. But historically, this is the kind of action that has led to the types of aggressive policing practices that Trump promised on the campaign trail — the sort that heavily contributes to higher incarceration rates.

States, rather than federal government, control most U.S. correctional policy. However, president-enforced spending on increased policing and reactive bolstering of policies surrounding it are what got us into the mass incarceration situation our country is in now. From Nixon through Bill Clinton, this was precisely the way law-and-order promises by presidents have gotten done. Trump and Sessions want to continue this tradition.

For now, the progress of national criminal justice reform seems to have merely stalled. After just a few short months, we have reason to believe we're on the path backwards in history. For those fighting for reforms, it's safest to assume that this is just the calm before the storm. The writing is on the wall.

Bianca Clark is the executive director of Prison Lives, a 501(C)(3) non-profit organization established to educate and enable prisoners to be productive individuals while incarcerated for a positive existence both inside and outside of prison life.

Happiness for Those in Prison

Happiness for Those in Prison

A guest post written by Joseph Clair for Prison Lives

To the parents of imperfect children.

To the children of imperfect parents.

 We all want our loved ones to be happy. No matter the circumstance. Research has shown that being happy can come from a place above circumstance. Physical conditions do not have to define happiness. Our brains are wired to be happy when what is truly meaningful is present within our thoughts. Being happy is not dependent upon our surroundings. Happiness is a state of bliss inside the mind. When we have meaning and purpose and are focused on what is greater than our surroundings, we can have happiness and peace. The more difficult the situation we find ourselves in, the more evident are the meaningful things that make us truly happy. An inner strength can be built that cannot be taken away by outside forces and will result in a strong invincible happiness.

Happiness is available for those who find themselves imprisoned.

There are many people who are not imprisoned by walls and bars but are imprisoned by other things such as fear, depression, anger, and guilt. The same elements that free us from these mental prisons will free us from walls and bars. Those who seemingly have it easy do not get the benefit of the in depth knowledge that is available to those who have it more difficult. Those who find themselves in very difficult situations gain a reward that is a precious resource they can always rely on throughout their life.

Whether behind physical or mental bars, if a person is experiencing guilt, fear, anger, and depression, then there is no happiness.Our thoughts govern our state of mind. Our brains are made torelease chemicals that give us happiness when our thoughts are based on goodness. No manmade drug is needed to make us happy, our brains manufacture what chemicals we need. The highest high, a wonderful state of bliss, can be attained by simply understanding life and love. There is nothing more powerful than life and love. When our thoughts line up with life itself, then we have what we need to be happy, no matter the circumstance.

The most debilitating state of mind a person can have is guilt. A person with guilt is a person who does not understand love. Love comes from life. Life’s main ingredient, basic characteristic, is love. Life’s love by definition is the giving of life. If a person thinks about the most love they have ever been shown, being given breath, a body, and a mind is the greatest. Life brought us into being not we ourselves. Life is a true gift and being given life is love at its purest. Life made each of us and we are all organic in nature. We are all born weak and ignorant with the opportunity to grow stronger and wiser. We are all the same in our imperfection. There is no human being who is good on their own. All goodness comes from life. No human being made how they are put together and we all are made imperfect. There is no profit in dwelling on our imperfection. To be loved is to be given what is needed. Need is necessary to know love. We all have need because of our imperfection. Love takes care of our need. Imperfection and need are sown into our humanity. It is very important to understand how love works. Love is the ability to make perfect that which is imperfect. No one can make themselves good the same as no one can make themselves. Goodness cannot be earned. Love cannot be earned. Love can only be a gift. Guilt comes from thinking about ourselves, our weakness, mistakes, our imperfection. Love’s ability is bigger than our ability. Love gives us our goodness out of an act of kindness. Love makes us good so we don’t have to be good to be loved. Love is more powerful than our weakness and faults. Nothing can keep us from life’s purpose and love. We may think people are against us but the only thing against us is fear and ignorance. Fear and ignorance have no power over love and wisdom. As light has absolute power and authority over darkness, (walk into a dark room and turn on the light and darkness is absolutely gone instantly), so the knowledge of love and wisdom absolutely removes fear and ignorance.

Love is the most powerful energy in existence. No prison can keep love from us. Love is there for us even in the worst situation. Love cares for us and is devoted to us. Love is a comforting and calming presence that is truly satisfying. There is no fear or guilt in love just as there is no fear in light. When we walk into a dark room and turn on the light switch, we see there is nothing to be afraid of. Darkness is only the absence of light. Guilt is the absence of understanding that love makes us good as a gift of compassion and kindness. Pride wants to earn love. Humbleness is seeing the need to be loved and that love is given without merit. When we focus our thoughts on the love shown to us when we were given our existence, then guilt is taken away. Guilt doesn’t exist in the presence of love.

Knowing the true meaning of love enables us to have a solid unmovable foundation on which to build a life. Love means forgiveness, love means compassion, love means understanding we are all imperfect, fragile, and in need of love’s empathy, grace, and mercy. Those of us who find ourselves in the worst situations can know love the most. Light shines brightest in the darkest places. Love is the authority, not our feelings of guilt. The more we need love’s help, the more we experience love’s goodness.

Love is intended for each of us. Love is etched in our very being. Scientists have found the place in the limbic part of the brain where love comes in and goes out. This part of the brain is connected to all other functions of the mind and body. Nothing helps a person function more than love. All human beings are at their best in all facets of life when they experience being loved. Our minds and bodies, being imperfect, will always let us down, will always make mistakes, will always be in need of love. As light takes away darkness so love takes away mistakes and failure. Seeing love’s goodness towards us removes any guilt and fear. A flower doesn’t bloom when it is put in a dark room. A flower blooms when it is given the sunshine it needs. We can always have our thoughts on what is good and meaningful and loving.

Love is what is truly meaningful and what gives each one of us a great purpose. Love forgets no one and love knows our innermost needs. Focusing our thoughts on the brilliance of life and love makes us happy anywhere and anytime. Being thankful and humble brings feelings of joy and peace. Seeing what life is teaching us every day makes us wise and strong. When we see the love that has been given to us by life itself then we have an invincible state of mind. Love is bigger than any situation we find ourselves in. Nothing has power over love. Life’s love is relentless and timeless. Life is constantly creating and giving life and goodness, which is love. Life is above all. Love is above all.

When we humble ourselves to love’s ability to heal and deliver us from any situation, any pain, any walls and bars, we find rest and happiness.We then have hope. Hope is what is guaranteed just not yet realized. We are all guaranteed a wonderful life as we learn and grow stronger in love’s ability to raise us up and out of our prisons.

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The Truth Behind Getting in Trouble in Prison


The Truth Behind Getting in Trouble in Prison, Originally published on the Huffington Post

By Shannon Ross written for Prison Lives

I recently found myself facing a common choice as an incarcerated individual: be a good person or be a good inmate; follow the dictates of humanity or follow those of the Department of Corrections (DOC). I chose the former.

Forty-two days in the hole later, and counting, I face the prospect of being sent back to a higher security prison further away from home. Yet my time has been spent in thought over how others, my loved ones and supporters, even society in general, misperceive what it means to get in trouble in prison.

To be fair, I did technically violate DOC policy and procedures, but there are many times when such rules can be illogical and ineffective. For instance, to break up a fight, even if one person is getting destroyed, is against the rules, as is making a three-way phone call, even if it's to facilitate a mothers talking to her son on his birthday.

Staff have the power to choose how they enforce the rules -- either according to logic and fairness by following a spirit-of-the-law approach, or to write a ticket or press the emergency button. Letter-of-the-law enforcement requires no more than a sixth-grade reading level and just enough mobility to write a ticket -- a disciplinary infraction. On the other hand, staff can look at the reason behind the regulation, the actions it's meant to prohibit or allow, to decide on any discipline. Three-way calls, for example, are banned so that we don't harass people who don't want to speak with us, especially crime survivors. It is not meant to prevent incarcerated parents from talking to their children (unless convicted of abusing them). Following the spirit of the law here would be equivalent to a cop letting a jaywalker off where there isn't a car within miles.

Correctional officers are managers. Their job is to monitor, control and safeguard the prison setting. Effective management requires flexibility with the rules in order to combat the type of tense, bitter and angry environment that comes with rigid enforcement. As any handyman would confirm, the same tool cannot be used to fix every problem. In many situations it is best to overlook a violation, or even permit it, for the greater good of all involved. Unfortunately, however, such logic and fairness are considerably under-utilized by prison staff.

Again, to be fair, it's safe to say that most of the discipline part to is justified under both spirit and letter. But even within this segment there are many instances that do not translate well to the outside world. For example, fantasy football -- an incredibly popular form of entertainment in society, encouraged as a bonding exercise for families and co-workers -- is understandably forbidden in prison. In this setting it can lead to fights, theft and general disruptions.

None of this takes into account the rules that simply should not exist. For instance, possessing adult porn or insulting a staff member outside of their presence are against the rules, even though no one is harmed. But there is the far-too-common reality where staff exaggerate or all out lie about an incident to intentionally cause trouble for the inmate -- or to deflect attention from their own misdeeds.

What this means for society, especially for those with loved ones behind bars, is that going to the hole does not necessarily indicate a bigger issue. The DOC is kind of like a foreign country where right, wrong, or respectable conduct are contrary to attitudes and behavior that define responsible and successful citizens in American society.

Over the course of my 13 1/2 years in prison, I've received 18 minor tickets and one major -- a behavioral record the DOC has termed "satisfactory." It may seem like a lot of infractions, but that's my point: even the prison administration (when it wants to) acknowledges that much of this disciplinary stuff is trivial.

Based on my only other trip to the hole, I expect to more or less have to defend my current experience to some in my life. I don't hold any grudges over their concerns or doubts. By getting locked up, I put myself in a position to be questioned or judged for every mouse-fart decision I make.

On behalf of every incarcerated individual, however, when you hear about a prisoner in solitary confinement, or if you have an incarcerated loved one who makes the likely trip to the hole, please give them a break -- even if the institution makes it seem serious. Refrain from jumping to conclusions, catastrophizing or moralizing. When it comes to the DOC, where there's smoke it doesn't necessarily mean there's fire.

Written by Shannon Ross for Prison Lives, a 501(C)(3) non-profit organization established to educate and enable prisoners to be productive individuals while incarcerated for a positive existence both inside and outside of prison life.

Shannon Ross is an ambassador for The Community newsletter, which is an anti-mass incarceration publication with a mostly Wisconsin focus that comes out every couple of months and is now sending out info via email every couple weeks.


How judges and drug companies stopped Arkansas’s execution spree

Originally published on The Hill

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This week, the Arkansas Department of Corrections, poised to set the nation's record for the most executions administered over a 10-day period, got caught.

With the supply of the first of the three required drugs in the lethal injection drugs cocktail about to expire, the state hastily lined up eight condemned men to face their sentence. But with the drugs prepped and the execution team at the ready, a judge called it off.

The reason for the stay: Arkansas officials lied to their drug supplier.

Arkansas is a state that has adopted secrecy laws to cover up the drugs it is using, how it obtains them, and the procedures it uses for executions. 

According to Asa Hutchinson, governor of the state, "The reason for this is the source of the drug would dry up because of pressure that mounts from anti-death penalty advocates, boycotts, threats."

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Tara Zyst: Live a lie or choose to die?

Originally published by the Tribune News Service

Tara Zyst

My name is Tara Ellyssia Zyst. I was born to another name: Karl Anthony Terry. I am not him. I have never been him. I will never be him.

He is a product of my parents’ wishful thinking. He is a product of their creative mythology. He does not exist and never existed.

But I exist.

I, Tara, am the only real entity birthed from my mother’s womb. Yet, all of my life, I have been denied that acknowledgement.

Now I am 43 years old. I’ve spent the last 23 of those years on Oregon’s death row, convicted and sentenced to death for two murders. I maintain my innocence.

I have been fighting with those charged with holding me — the Oregon Department of Corrections — since 2005, trying to obtain treatment for gender identity disorder. I have formal diagnoses, but the prison clinicians refuse to acknowledge them because they are made by outside providers.

I’ve fought. I’ve taken the prison system to court to force accountability. In 2010, Marion County Circuit Court Judge Joseph Guimond found me to have a “serious medical/psychiatric condition,” in his written decision to my habeas filing but dismissed my petition as moot based on the Department of Justice’s argument that I would be provided appropriate mental health care by the prison.

Seven years later, the facility’s Prison Rape Elimination Act compliance manager finally formally placed me on the list of inmates the Oregon prison system recognizes to be transgender. But their promises to quickly assess and diagnose me through their gender identity disorder specialist have not yet occurred.

Under Obama, the law was evolving to better recognize transgender issues. But given the recent confirmation of our new attorney general, Jeff Sessions — no ally to the LGBTQ community — it seems unlikely that the government will be advancing reforms on the treatment of transgender inmates.

My circumstances are rare but not altogether unique. There are 1.4 million adults who identify as transgender in the United States, according to a Williams Institute, UCLA School of Law survey. Of those, the Bureau of Justice Statistics reveal that 3,200 of us are incarcerated, although that number is likely underreported.

As Kris Hayashi, executive director of the Transgender Law Center, has said of those in my circumstances, “For too long, institutions have ignored prisoners and casually dismissed medically necessary and lifesaving care for transgender people.”

I was sexually abused as a child and raped in adolescence and adulthood. I continue to carry all that pain, fear, rage and hate. My psyche is tortured. My mind, heart and soul are progressively being eaten away.

Being on death row, my time is finite. Perhaps that’s what prison administrators are counting on. But living out my days this way is no longer an option for me. The only alternative I have left is to waive all remaining appeals and demand my execution date.

Better to die than go on living this nightmare.

Tara Ellyssia Zyst is an inmate at the Oregon State Penitentiary. She wrote this article for Prison Lives (, a nonprofit organization established to educate and enable prisoners to be productive individuals.

The power of the pen inside American prisons is often underestimated

Originally published on The Hill

This past year has seen two of the largest American prisoner protests of all times. 

The biggest, held by inmates in 24 states in September on the 45th anniversary of the Attica prison uprising, staged a work stoppage to draw attention to "modern-day slavery" in America's prisons. 

The next largest, just a few weeks ago, prisoners rose up against Aramark— one of the nation's largest for-profit providers of prison food -- over their many reported abuses. The U.S. has the highest rate of incarceration of any country in the world, making criminal justice a favorite topic of conversation in the media.

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Trump's support for the death penalty puts him on wrong side of history

Originally published on The Hill


Our president is the same man who once paid $85,000 for full-page adsin the top four New York Daily newspapers to loudly express his wish: "Bring Back the Death Penalty!'

He is perhaps the loudest proponent of capital punishment to ever take office. Yet, ironically, in the year he got elected, the total number of executions in this country only amounted to twenty -- a 25-year low.

Further, with only 30 new death sentences imposed in 2016, America experienced the lowest number of new death row inmates since the reinstatement of the sentence in 1976. Will executions ramp up again over the next four years? With a death penalty advocate as the leader of our land, what is happening with capital punishment in America in these first few months?


The following is a state-by-state breakdown of current capital punishment activity since the arrival of President Trump.

Alabama: Known as the final holdout of state's that allow judges to override a jury when sentencing capital murder cases, Alabama passed a bill through their Senate last month to change this practice. It is unclear what will happen to the more than half of the 194 improperly sentenced prisoners currently residing on their death row.

Arizona: After the state's end-of-year ban on the use of Midazolam -- the current, but controversial, sedative of choice in executions across the country -- they are scrambling for an alternative. In what appears to be a desperate sidestep to save their death penalty, last month they introduced a new protocol that invites capital defense attorneys to obtain execution drugs on behalf of their condemned clients. As Dale Baich, from the Federal Public Defender's Office in Arizona put it, "This is a bizarre notion that calls for actions that are both illegal and impossible." Executions are on hold.

California: After the passing Proposition 66 in the last election, an historic measure designed to "fix" the state's death penalty by speeding up the appeals process, the state has hit two substantial snags. First, the California Supreme Court halted the reforms before they took effect to consider a challenge brought about by the state's former attorney general that the measure would disrupt the courts, cost more money, and result in attorneys cutting corners to keep up. The bigger setback, however, came from the state's Office of Administrative law, which, in January, rejected the new lethal injection protocol proposed by the California Department of Corrections, citing inadequacies, inconsistency, and numerous ambiguities. Executions remain on hold.

Colorado: Attempts to repeal the state's death penalty failed along party lines last month. This is despite the fact that only 3 people reside on Colorado's death row, the death chamber has gone unused in nearly 20 years, and estimates hold that the cost of maintaining the penalty cost Colorado taxpayers $5-10 million annually. There is currently a moratorium on all executions.

Florida: One step ahead of Alabama, state legislators announced last month that they are finally moving ahead with a measure that would require a unanimous jury verdict in death penalty cases. This leaves nearly 400 condemned prisoners — the second largest death row population — in limbo. As this particular issue has yet to be addressed in courts, Florida executions are unlikely to resume anytime soon.

Georgia: Executing more prisoners than any state in 2016 -- at 9, accounting for nearly half of all executions last year and outpacing Texas by a couple -- the death penalty in Georgia seems to be as healthy as ever. However, according to Mark Hyden, from the Georgia Conservatives Concerned about the Death Penalty, a Project of EJUSA, "Georgia's death penalty is dwindling so quickly that in a few years it may exist in name only." There are currently no inmates eligible for execution in 2017.

Kansas: In January, eight Republican and seven Democratic lawmakers introduced a bill to abolish their death penalty. With bipartisan support, without an execution since 1965, and with only 10 on death row, there may never be another execution in Kansas.

Kentucky: Bipartisan House and Senate bills have been introduced to limit the maximum punishment in Kentucky to life without the possibility of parole.

Missouri: In February, the state's appellate court ruled that prison officials are not obligated to reveal the source of the drugs they use for executions, clearing the way for executions to resume.

Mississippi: After an inability to acquire lethal injection drugs, state lawmakers have proposed legislation that would add alternative means of execution, including the gas chamber, a firing squad and electrocution. In February, a state senate committee shot down the firing squad, leaving the two other proposed methods still up for debate. Executions are on hold.

Montana: After a bill to abolish the death penalty narrowly failed along party lines in the last session, a Republican lawmaker introduced a new bill to repeal the penalty in this session. With bipartisan support, no access to lethal injection drugs, and a death row population of two, this bill seems to have a good chance of advancing.

Nebraska: Voters approved the reinstatement of their death penalty in the last election (by 61 percent). However, without the drugs needed to actually carry out an execution, lawmakers are considering a bill that would shield the identities of future drug sources. There are currently no executions scheduled.

Nevada: A repeal effort is currently under consideration in the Nevada Assembly. The state recently spent $900,000 creating a new execution chamber, but has been unable to carry out any executions because it has not been able to acquire lethal injection drugs.

New Hampshire: The only New England state with capital punishment still on the books is considering a bill to expand the eligibility for its penalty that would include anyone convicted of killing a minor. New Hampshire only has one person on death row and has not executed anyone since 1939.

Ohio: A federal judge ruled in February that the state's new three-drug lethal injection process is unconstitutional, citing a "substantial risk of serious harm." Ohio is one of the few states that have enough drugs to carry out executions. But without a legal protocol, it is unlikely that they'll be able to use them. Eight executions have already been stayed this year.

Oklahoma: The U.S. Supreme Court cleared Oklahoma to use the controversial sedative midazolam in executions, but due to further legal challenges, ongoing concerns about the state's protocol and its inability to procure the needed drugs, executions have remained on hold.

Oregon: Governor Kate Brown reaffirmed her decision to continue a moratorium on executions in Oregon during her new term. Oregonians for Alternatives to the Death Penalty are currently conducting a campaign to raise awareness in preparation for a ballot measure to repeal the penalty.

Pennsylvania: Governor Tom Wolf placed a moratorium on executions in 2016 pending a long-anticipated release of a bipartisan commission report examining the state's death penalty. Another deadline for the report was missed in January, which is now three years overdue. It is unlikely that any of the 175 inmates on death row in Pennsylvania will face their sentence anytime soon.

Texas: After their fewest executions in over a decade last year (seven), Texas carried out the nation's first execution in 2017. However, lawmakers on both sides of the aisle are calling for death penalty reform including the repeal of the "law of parties," which holds defendants responsible if they were involved in a crime that resulted in a murder, even if they weren't directly involved in the killing. They have previously executed five people under this statute. Texas is currently suing the Food and Drug Administration over impounded drugs it needs for future executions. It remains to be seen if Trump's new FDA commissioner appointment will stand down on the opposition to the importation of lethal injection drugs.

Utah: Without the ability to obtain lethal injection drugs, Utah re-adopted the firing squad method. There are bills both for and against the death penalty in Utah's legislature to be considered this year. No executions are scheduled.

Virginia: As one of the handful of states that shield lethal injection drug sellers from the public record, Virginia became the second state to execute a prisoner in 2017. There are six remaining death row inmates in the state.

Washington: Attempts to abolish the state's death penalty this year have already failed. But as one of four states that have a moratorium on executions, and with Governor Inslee who has vowed to not allow an execution during his term, there will be no executions anytime soon.

The death penalty continues to suffer from the same maladies that have caused declines in both executions and the seeking of the death penalty. With repeal efforts ramping up across the nation and the ongoing inability to obtain drugs in most states, along with many other problems, it does not appear that the health of the death penalty will improve anytime soon.

Perhaps President Trump will need to purchase a lot more ad space to promote the use of the death penalty. Or maybe it's finally time to put an end to the madness.

Bianca Clark is the director of Prison Lives, a 501(C)(3) non-profit organization established to educate and enable prisoners to be productive individuals while incarcerated for a positive existence both inside and outside of prison life. 

Why is Race Still Pertinent in this Day and Age? Why is Our United States of America Built on So Many Social Injustices?

Marquis Gilliam

Why is Race Still Pertinent in this Day and Age? Why is Our United States of America Built on So Many Social Injustices?
Guest Post by Marquis Omar Gilliam

With so many issues pressing on our domestic soil today, life shouldn't be about how many followers one has on social media. How does the vision become re-energized for the betterment of all?

As someone who takes a broad pro-diverse position on life as a whole, I wonder, is our American dream full of misguided ignorance and pepper-sprayed malarkey? How will we truly understand what defines existence?

Blue eyes and blonde hair has, with bias, represented what one could consider upper-echelon living. This level of thinking ostracizes the conscious mind, leaving its vision dilapidated with myopic views that sacatter like a kaleidoscope. Speaking from the livelihood and/or struggle of an African American male, equality defiines one's ability to honestly dream. Only through the spigot of education does equality balance the playing field.

I personally welcome all cultures inside the intimacy of my self-restructured conscious state. In gluttonous fashion, I devour all outlets, streams and any channel of knowledge. This allows one's trajectory to problem-solving display of full abilities. The thing I enjoy in my life today is learning more about cultures, which will manifest through the rules of engagement.

For every theory there's an opinion. For every question, answers laced with facts surface. Are you open to dig deeper into the residue of race-charged ignorance? I challenge all readers to step out from routine living and the cubicle you hide behind to determine your next move on this chessboard of life.

Intellectualized Intimacy That Secures Itself Emotionally in the Mind

Marquis Gilliam

Intellectualized Intimacy That Secures Itself Emotionally in the Mind
Guest Post by Marquis Omar Gilliam

For the last 20 years, prison has, quite unfortunately, been my dwelling place of residence. With that being said, regardless of how much time escapes me, I continue to find women the desired companion of choice.

Due solely to being incarcerated, physical exchange is not present like it used to be. In order to reach those climactic levels with the opposite sex, one must evolve and come to recognize that there are still so many ways to connect.

For me, wisdom is thy woman. I continue to place my mind in the capable hands of her secure embrace. Intimacy is something that begins, and sometimes ends, between the ears. It should never start below the navel once the mind has reached its climactic level of consciousness.

Creating the ideal love should be viewed as artistry. The trust and patience present will be able to intimately touch the body within the mind, almost as delicately as a wing of a butterfly fluttering. The objective is the rebirthing of genuine attraction and its continuous flow through the stream of intellectuality. 

Emotionally attaching oneself to the ideologies, goals, vulnerabilities, fears and aspirations of the potential chosen one is the task at hand. Loving from an innovative acute angle blanketing the entire erogenous part of the mind unselfishly shall and will be present. Profound conversations displaying provacative innuendos leave one garbed mysteriously throughout the exchange, leaving the imagination running wild. Loyalty grows inside the bond as beautifully as an about-to-be-born baby in the womb.

Being able to agree to disagree will always maintain secured respectful intimacy. Appreciation, sophistication, and sustenance in superflous fashion will faithfully ignite yearning for emotional security. The emancipation of the mind disallows this incarnation from immuring one's desire to avidly destroy any livelihood of ignorance and narcissistic selfishness. It allows one to attentively pay homage to even the smallest detail as if from the hands of a masseuse. 

I welcome all replies from challenged minds.

Self-Inflicted Solitary Confinement

 Marquis Omar Gilliam

Marquis Omar Gilliam

By Marquis Omar Gilliam, guest writer for Prison Lives

Let the past be the past. You can't change it. 

If you make the mistake of living in guilt today because of something you did yesterday, you won't have the strength you'll need to live this day in victory. Your only limitation is the one you set up in your mind.

Limitations easily become a form of confinement. Isolating ourselves breeds the solitary perspective that can immure us.

I am incarcerated, but part of me recognizes that a lot of you who live outside these walls are as well. Life choices can build prisons within the mind if one isn't meticulous in making healthy choices. 

The goal of any prison is to break down one's resolve. Understanding this ideology took some time on my part. The formula that allowed me to solve this: Embracing the concept of adversity builds us.

Another solution to defeating confinement comes through investing heavily in educating oneself. Through the channel of learning, freedom roams without restriction. It allows the mind true liberty in eluding the hands of confinement. 

One must harbor aspirations of seducing the minds of our youth into excellence, which would emancipate any likelihood of mediocrity. There is a psychological chain that must be broken in order to restore justice in the hearts of problematic individuals.

Albert Einstein once said, "The world can't be changed until we change our thinking." If one would just maintain this key of understanding, confinement could not place roots in the mind. 

Solitary confinement is used to correct negative behavior. But it also has the ability to thwart being social in healthy fashion. Subjecting the mind to isolation over abnormal periods of time often creates an unbalanced emotional individual.

I'm speaking to someone out there. I would ask that you take the proper inventory within the mind to recognize where you may be placing prison confinements within yourself.

Marquis Omar Gilliam is a prisoner at Stanley Correctional Facility in Wisconsin.

Prison Phone Calls: Trump May Cut the Lifeline 

Originally posted on Forbes

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The cost of a phone call today is no more of a thought than the air we breathe. The cost of a phone call from prison, however, can take your breath away. For those who must pay such costs, which can easily average as much as a monthly luxury car payment, breathing just got a lot more labored. 

Phone calls between prisoners and their loved ones on the outside often represent the only contact inmates have with the world beyond prison walls. Recent studies and common sense have shown that maintaining these outside ties is a vital link to successful prisoner reentry, and thus key to reducing recidivism rates. But high prison phone rates have dramatically restricted the amount of meaningful contact that prisoners can have with those that care about them. 

Up until this week, the Federal Communications Commission (FCC) was doing something about it. The cost of a call from prison to an out-of-state loved one was as much as a dollar per minute in most states just a few years ago. That was until the FCC stepped in to enforce rate caps at a quarter of that price. 

Suddenly, inmates were able to connect with those they cared about four times more often. 

The FCC was currently fighting to likewise reduce local/in-state calling rates, now as costly as long-distance calling. It just became painfully apparent, however, that they will likely be abandoning this effort, a devastating about-face for those hoping to soon be able to afford more quality communication with those on the other side of the wall. 

The reason? President Trump. 

Just as the Supreme Court is about to be dominated by the conservative side of the political landscape, so too is the FCC. Prison phone regulations were able to take hold during the Obama administration thanks to a 3-2 democratic majority amongst the five FCC commissioners. But with two majority members of the commissioners retiring from their post last month, President Trump gets to appoint new members, thus creating a new majority. 

One of the likely first acts of the new commission: Roll back the prison phone regulations set in motion by the former office. 

The price-gouging practices of the giant for-profit prison phone providers have been known, as have the millions of dollars in "commission" kickbacks that the prisons receive for utilizing them. As one FCC official, Mignon Clyburn, put it, "In my 16 years as a regulator, this is the clearest, most egregious case of marked failure I have seen." 

The phone providers disagree. Counsel on behalf of the prison phone industry, Michael Kellogg, argues that the proposed regulations, when combined with recent caps and kickbacks paid to prisons put them "under water." A statement that is hard to swallow knowing that this is a $1.2 billion industry. 

Some states have proven that they care more about reducing recidivism rates than profiteering by adopting practices that restrict or ban kickbacks from the phone providers, effectively reducing phone prices. Dramatically so. For instance, while the average cost of a 15-minute in-state call is $2.46, Ohio, New York and New Jersey charge an average of 70 cents. The Virginia's, even though they still accept millions of dollars in kickbacks, have managed to drop their phone rates to a relatively reasonable 3 to 4 cents per minute. 

The majority of states, however, will not reduce rates until they are told they have to. With Trump in office, it is unlikely that requirement will come anytime soon. 

In the meantime, prison systems, prison phone providers, and the incarceration philosophies of a president are allowing exploitation of those most affected by incarceration, essentially and callously extending the punishment to both sides of the prison wall. 

Perhaps partisan politics won't spill over to the upcoming FCC considerations of prison phone company regulations. Perhaps they will wisely see the correlation between prison phone and recidivism rates and opt not to be penny-wise and pound foolish. 

We're not holding our breath. 

Doing Frozen Time: A 30-Year Inmate's View Of Modern Technology

Originally published on February 15, 2017 by Forbes

David Simonsen

By David Simonsen written for Prison Lives

I have never held a cell phone, much less used one to text or take a selfie. I didn't know what a "selfie" was until a couple of years ago. I have never owned a personal computer, much less "surfed" the internet. The internet didn't even exist the day I landed in prison, nearly 30 years ago.

Ronald Reagan was president. Frogger was one of the most popular video games in the world. The highest rated television program was The Cosby Show. The last movie I saw as a new release at the theater: Platoon.

My calendar is stuck in 1988. The penitentiary walls form the lining of the time capsule I live in. What is now considered to be ancient, what I last knew as "modern technology" is still current to me. The only signals that it is not come in the form of looks of bewilderment on the faces of new arrivals when I divulge that my last TV set required the turning of a nob or that my phone had a rotary dial.

The world beyond the walls doesn't seem to be able to exist without the modern conveniences. Can you imagine life without a smart phone, for example? I can. In fact, I'm not allowed to exist with such things. To have my hands on an internet-enabled device would mean an immediate trip to solitary confinement, a place that offers nothing more technologically advanced than a paperback book.

On one hand, I'm envious, knowing how severely I am missing out. The conveniences that technology affords would allow me to do incredible things with the time I must serve. I spend my time in as many positive pursuits as possible, despite my confinement. Unfortunately, hwever, this often requires outside assistance to access the information and resources I need to keep advancing. Internet access would allow a self-sufficiency that I can only dream of.

At the same time, though, from this perspective, it all looks a little absurd. Everyone seems to be completely dependent on technology, almost enslaved by it. The phone is handcuffed to nearly every living unincarcerated person, requiring its holder to be constantly accessible and to respond with an immediacy that looks more intrusive than convenient.

It seems the world is completely dependent on it, as if life can't be enjoyed without it. When I watch a televised event, for instance, I see a thousand cell phones raised trying to capture a moment on stage, a thousand people almost completely missing the best parts because of it.

Recent data states that the average amount of time spent on the internet is in the neighborhood of 25 hours per week, a part time job spent browsing, checking email, and camped out on social networking sites. I cannot relate. It sounds exhausting.

There is a trickling of authorized technology making its way through the prison walls, though. Just a taste. In my prison, for example, I can now purchase what is essentially, I'm told, an iPod from over a decade ago. Today, I have the "privilege" (the prison administration's word, not mine) of downloading overpriced Mp3 music. So, I've stuck my toe in, now buying music as I can afford it -- all 70s and 80s artists, of course. A relative fortune spent on something I should easily still have on cassettes.

Now rumor has it that tablets are beginning to be introduced to prisons across the nation, which will include games, eBooks, magazine subscriptions, and other features, charged by the minute. It's a great money-making scheme for the prison systems, but I'm not sure what's wrong with playing cards and publications you can hold onto.

Living in the nostalgia of my time, without the distraction of the fast-moving world, isn't so bad. It's worked for my entire lifetime. I'm contented. Why change now?

From the contented inside view looking out, it makes me wonder if the world might be a happier, less stressed place without the nonstop pressures of technological "advancement." Or just maybe self-driving cars will indeed be the key to all future happiness. 

Perhaps one day I'll find out, on that morning I'm released from my prison confines wearing my old trusty Levi's button-fly 501 blue jeans clocking my first minutes of freedom on my classic Swatch watch. But until then, 1988 sounds like a perfect year to be stuck in.

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